This is my last blog before the New Year and I’m still reeling from the fact that another year is over. How can this be? It’s scary how time speeds up as you get older. It kind of scares me because there’s still so much that I want to do, and since I’m not 25 anymore (I’m 29), I panic with the sense that I’m running out of time to do it all.
I think that’s why sometimes I rush through things—because I feel this sense of urgency. But that’s not always a good thing because I look back on certain things and wish that I’d taken more time with them.
On the other hand, it took me so long to get certain things done that I feel like I don’t want to waste time ever again. On the other other hand, that’s not a very Zen way to live.
But I’m not a Buddhist.
I guess part of it, too, is the fact that I did so much this year that I was barely able to come up for air. I started off the year by seeing my first novel published (Twice Bitten) and going to a bloggers’ conference in Birmingham in January. In the second half of the year, I traveled to Dallas for GCLS, to New Mexico for the WWWNM gathering, and to Palm Springs for the first annual Left Coast Lesbian Conference (LCLC). This year, I also wrote and published my first novella (Add Spice to Taste), had my story “Love Bites” appear in When The Clock Strikes Thirteen, did several online readings and interviews with Liz McMullen (here and here) and Andy and Cheri over at the Bar Rag, read for Liz’s fabulous Halloween show, and hosted a weekend at LesFic Reader on Facebook. In the meantime, I’ve begun writing 2 novels and researching a third.
And that’s only in my fiction-writing life. In my non-fiction life, I also attended and/or participated in numerous events throughout the year and I’m working on books and articles.
So, if you ever hear me say that I’m tired, you’ll understand why.
I don’t know how long I can keep up this pace, but I have a good feeling about 2014, and if that feeling turns into reality, I’ll hopefully be able to step back and sit down a little bit every other month or so.
I hope that 2014 is a fabulous one for you all and that your dreams come true. I wish everyone health, wealth, and happiness (health at the very least, because without health, wealth mean nothing).
Happy New Year! Have fun and be safe.