Hi there. I haven’t posted in quite some time, and since this is the last week of 2015, I thought I’d do one last blog for the year.
The end of the year is always a rough one for me because I’m reminded that another year has gone by and I’m still not where I wanted to be at this stage of my life. But if you’ve joined me here before, you may know that I’ve been on this journey to change my outlook on life. I’ve been trying to become a more positive person and learn how to view the world and its events differently.
And as I’m sure you all know, there are days, weeks, months, even years that are harder to maintain this way of thinking than others.
This week has been one of those weeks for me. I won’t go into every bit of stupidness that I’ve dealt with, but I will mention one thing. Many of you already know that I hate my job. I took it out of desperation after being out of work for a year and a half. It’s in an industry that I’ve never worked in before and never thought I would. I just hit my 5-year anniversary, which sucks, and the number of jobs I’ve applied to over the years is sick. Sickening, really.
So, there I am, having a rough week and I get the news that one of my co-workers got another job and would be leaving at the end of the month. The thing is, she wasn’t looking for a job. Someone she knew in another facility called her and told her about the position. Then, later in the day, another co-worker told me that someone in another department asked her if she’d be interested in moving to that department, which would probably mean more money.
I don’t think I need to explain how this all affected me. I felt like a cartoon character whose head blows off like a rocket. I had to wonder if someone did a little bubble-bubble-toil-and-trouble on me and cursed me. I don’t actually believe in curses but in the state I was in, I couldn’t deny the possibility. And just because I was feeling like I had no recourse, I Googled the term “I feel like I’m cursed.”
I saw the link for a page called “How to Remove a Curse.” So, just for shits and giggles, I clicked on it. It turned out to be a positive thinking kind of thing, written by Erin Pavlina, an intuitive counselor (whatever that is). She says, “No one can curse you unless you believe they can curse you” and “You must realize that it is impossible for someone to direct the universe to harm you.”
These, and the other statements she makes are good to remember when you feel like the Universe is conspiring against you. I’m not endorsing her classes or books, and I haven’t read further into her methodologies. But what I found on that particular page is essentially what other “positive thinkers” have told me.
So, since we’re about to start a new year, I’m going to make this a goal. If you’re in need of some words to help lighten your burden of negativity and make 2016 a better year, you can find a few here:
http://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2014/02/how-to-remove-a-curse/
And here’s where you can go to get some tips on the steps you can take to a more positive outlook:
http://www.successconsciousness.com/index_000009.htm
I’ll leave you with this quote from Pavlina’s page:
“No one has the power to make me feel anything without my permission.”
Happy New Year to everyone, and may 2016 bring joy, happiness, and dreams that come true.
R.G. Emanuelle 
It’s been painful to watch you over the years, knowing how unhappy you are and being helpless to help. If curses could be cast, then surely magic fairy dust could be sprinkled and I’d sure as heck be there with a bagful for you! Many years ago, I was a big Shirley MacLaine fan (always a fan of her acting, but with a friend we really got into her woo-woo stuff, stopping short only of the aliens). In her book, Out on a Limb, she tells of a technique she uses. At the moment of your birth (and you may have to look up the time), you have all the power of the universe at your disposal. Focus on something you want–something you really, truly are able to accomplish–and wish for it at that moment. Crazy, I know. But I tried it several times and a couple of them worked out. She’d wished for her book to be a success (maybe even just to finish it). And look what happened. Now, I’m not saying I believe this stuff, but I was desperate. Whether it made the difference or not, I don’t know. But it didn’t cost me anything but a little sleep (glad I wasn’t born at 2 a.m.!).
I want 2016 to be fabulous for you! I want you to find the joy in your work that you find in your writing (I’m just assuming that’s joyful looking at your packed banner!). At the very least, I wish you peace!
Aw, thanks, Elaine. That’s very sweet of you to say all that. Maybe I’ll give your technique a try. My writing IS the thing that brings me joy, which is why I keep doing it, even though I still struggle to be “heard.”
May 2016 be a beautiful for you, Elaine.